Emotions

Last year, as an intern with Chi Alpha, I discovered that I am an emotional person. I have noticed this even more so the last few months. The weather really impacts my mood. When it rains I feel lethargic and when it is sunny and warm, I find it so easy to be joyful about life. I can go for a motorcycle ride, enjoy time with friends outside, go for a ride in a convertible with the top down, or even just work outside on the back deck.

Beyond the weather, I am learning more and more that life is an emotional roller coaster. Some days are really good, some days are really bad and some days fall in between. I have had several friends going through a lot recently. I want to be there for them. I want to be the one that they can turn to. I feel like I have been able to do that in some capacity. We all need somebody to lean on. I enjoy being that go to person for people, even when I do not have the words to comfort them. But then I think, why is there so much crap in the world? On a day like today, Good Friday, I am reminded that this is not the way it is supposed to be. Jesus died for us so that we may live. Thank you for what you did Jesus- for me, my family, my friends, and everyone. I find comfort in that, but the last few months I have found that hard to be enough. A lot of it is me still needing to look past my own selfishness. I'm reminded that I am still young and have a lot to learn.

I am enjoying my job, but there is just so much else in life that is still up in the air- where do I want to live, with whom do I really want to continue to purse relationships? These and other things lead me on the emotional roller coaster. Shows like Parenthood make me look forward to the future- possibly married and with kids, but then I also see how difficult that phase could be- your kids rebel, you son could have autism, your daughter could be in a severe car accident, your spouse could cheat on you, etc. Each new life phase brings new challenges and new emotions. There will continue to be both really good and really bad days. It's the good days that keep you going.

Two untitled songs by Mumford and Sons, to me, are very emotional. Listen to the words and let me know what you think.
1. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xKkYR_tiJQw&feature=youtu.be
2. (two minutes in) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6CrxU2SXFMs&feature=related