perspective and thanks

I have had a hard time recently with where I am. I look to the other side and all I see is green grass. This year as a Chi Alpha intern I have had to do a lot of things that I did not expect and take classes on things that I have never thought about or just accepted. It has been a real challenge. Every time I see what other people are doing, I think, wow, I wish that I were doing that this year instead. It has been hard because a lot of the people that I was close to have moved on. Even the people that are still around, the relationships have changed a lot.

I have been processing a lot about my life, where I am, what I want to do. I have found myself unhappy as a result instead of seeing the joy and purpose. I have had a lot of great conversations with friends recently who have shown me that God has a purpose for all of us. God has a purpose for me being an intern this year. I fight it almost daily, but I am learning a lot. God has a purpose for the weaknesses in our lives. He uses it do shows us just how much we are dependent upon Him. Now to just truly believe that.

Logan recently shared about what it is like to be a nurse, and I have heard Sarah share about what it is like as well. People's lives are in their hands and it is HARD. The fact is that God does not always call us to what is easy. They are called to be nurses and I am called to be a Chi Alpha intern this year. It is not always easy and it may not always be comfortable, but we need to be good stewards of the opportunities that God gives us. Thanks God for leading me to this internship this year.

Thank you family and friends for all of your support and encouragement over the last 23 years. I would not know where I would be without you all. Thank you.

Fall Break

I did not see it coming, but God had big plans for my fall break. I had a great visit with my parents, Sarah, Busi, Logan, Dan and Staff. I went home, went to NOVA to stay with Sarah and Dan and I also went to a minister's retreat in Ocean City, MD. I had some much needed honest conversations and I feel like I have been hit by a train. God works that way sometimes and that is ok. God is good.